About to cry

I am so sad. I miss so much food. I almost cracked today and cheated I don't because Adrian don't want to share , which I don't blame him. In front of me sat a large plate of pasta with pancetta, sage, parm, and an egg! Omg I died looking at it!!! I wanted a bite so bad I would have caves if he let me! It's getting harder not eating my favorite foods! So I need to vent about all the foods I miss incredibly much!!!! 

Butter noodles, chicken Parmesan, creamy sausage baked pasta, potatoes gratin, nachos, pasta, pasta, any kind of pasta, BOOZE(of any kind), pasta, ravioli, tortolini, rice, potatoes, corn, corn casserole, tacos, bread, sub sandwiches,  brea crumbs, stuffing, mashed potatoes, chips and dip, basically any carb rice, corn, flour, or potato produced. 

I am sad I miss all of there things my diet is mostly fish, chicken, pork, beef, cheese, yogurt, fruit, and vegetables. Pardon my French but it f*cking sucks! It is getting harder with everyday watching people cook at school. Also I feel like part of me missing. I hate it. I look back everyday at what I have accomplished I feel like I have came so far, and can't help but feel proud of myself. But now I have become inspired by others who are inspired by me. It helps me feel like I am doing well. Everytime I get told I am doing great or you look great, it is great. It makes me feel very inspired! I also miss popcorn, sushi, and candy by the way. P90x doesn't bother me much anymore, I am almost done with my 3rd week! Almost a third of the way through! I wanna get shirts after saying I did it. I miss food and it sucks, I miss cookie cake, cake, ice cream, brownies, mac n cheese, and most items availible from apple pie. 

Also I think it is fair to thank Adrian for everything so far. He always holds me up when I am down. He pushes me even when I am feeling lazy. He is always making me better! Thank you Adrian!